Life Coaching

There comes moments in our lives when new aspect of self begin to emerge, it is in these moments we experience the Soul within at work. One could describe this as the task of putting a jigsaw puzzle together. Each piece of this puzzle is filled with a myriad of beliefs, values, mixed with our life experiences and outside messages. As we begin to shift through the pieces the need to make sense of it all seems to motivate one to find meaning. We can come across a piece that feels it does not belong, or, the thought “I know this goes here, yet I can’t get it to fit”. These are hidden jewels, and have been holding true to their purpose. When we allow ourselves to go beyond our perception of how it should be, or the thought of I don’t know, we find that the piece that has been given us trouble is the bridge one needed to make the picture whole again. I was at one of these moments when I came across Carol Goddard.
I was finding myself filled with the need of moving from being a full time stay at home mother to a woman whom had the desire to do more, explore more, and create more. I had been feeling stuck at this place for a while, and the feeling of not being able to leave my kids was running through my being. I had been going through my own box “of how to” treasured tools when a memory of my daughter’s birth arose. A subtle gift from my unconscious and seemed to be accompanied by a wealth of feelings, and messages. I began to sift through these messages, and two keys presented themselves – “what kind of support did you need before the birth and after the birth”. This led me to realize I needed a guide. I began to look on the internet, knowing that I was looking for a coach who attends to the spirit and soul. In response to my intent, I found Carol’s website and decided to make an inquiry about her services.
During our initial conversation she had ask what attracted me to her services, at the time I responded that it was her intent of providing guidance to assist the soul’s journey. It was not until our first session that I realized it was her experience as a midwife along with her intent of working with the soul that I was attracted to. As we continued to share, there were moments where deep fear came through, and with Carol’s intent of holding unconditional support, I was able to voice my fears. She then held me in a space of “this is perfect and would you like to try a session and we can work with this fear”. I was both excited and tentative, yet I knew deep within, this was the support I was looking for, a place where my fears could have a place to be transformed and my truth be freely expressed. We set a time for a session; I got off the phone and felt great warmth of support. 

 
The morning of my session I awoke and again felt both excited and tentative for my phone call with Carol. As I entered our conversation, Carol would allow me to express any thoughts or feelings that would arise, while gently guiding the energy of the session. She eventually brought me back to the place of the birth of my daughter where I found a thought of “what have I done” moving through that surprised me. My labor had ended with a C-section and never felt complete. I was tentative to share with Carol what had come up, as shame, guilt for even having the thought came rushing forward to safe guard me, yet I could not, not share what was coming up. With Carol’s guidance she moved me from a place of fear to a place of love, and I embraced both the thought and the feeling and moved into the core of what was happening. I gaining access to the knowledge I needed to complete something.
As the session continued there was a sense of safety and unconditional support, allowing me to go deeper into myself and open up my own abilities to perceive within. I found myself viewing my womb as a huge beautiful bowl; the left side of the bowl held the universe, the right side held a beautiful sun lit meadow. Each side was accompanied with a feeling, one not so pleasant, (that is disgusting) and shame filled my field of perception. Again with Carol genuine invitation to voice these feelings from a place of light and love, I was able to transform more shame that was held within and go deeper to the core where the gift of the unconscious offered up the voice of “I can’t leave them”. At this moment, I could feel my body tighten, with Carol’s persistence of holding unconditional space I was able to release and surrender and allow guidance to bring me back to my core. It is here in my core where I found this in creditable source of light, love and Joy and a new level of awareness was expressed with a delight-filled giggle. She allowed me to organically explore this core and reflected to her what I was experiencing. When thoughts would move me from this core, with gentle inquires or reflective statements I could move back to my core.

During one of the moments I had begun to move away from my core, she asks a reflective question, “Are you birthing yourself?” I felt into this and reflective back into the last three months and realized, yes this is what is happening. What I had needed was not more information on how to do this, or what to do, I needed a guide who could help me release all the triggers that were in place, hold space to allow me to discover the knowing held within, move from creating from a place of fear to a place of Joy and allow myself to acknowledge and embrace my own knowing. I could feel deep love radiating towards me, and a wave of gentle understanding. I could feel how I have been in the process of birthing my knowing into my world. As I allowed myself to settling into this feeling, within my own psychic world, I could see, a women standing off to the right holding a baby in her arms, and I understood it was a part of me. I could see my own daughter smiling at me, and wave of joy and giggles rose up, and I understood the greatest gift she had given to me was the birth of my own awareness of the soul light within me. There seemed to be the gentle and profound understanding between the two of us, which was “we are born with our own knowing”. The seeds of this knowing are held within the womb of self to cultivate and become in our world. This knowing is what guides us in life, and it has been present throughout my role as mother. It is through this role I have been able to express and experience the knowing I held as a little girl. I had a memory rush forward of a feeling I had when was holding my infant daughter; “all she needed was deep within her”. I also understood in this moment, to honor my knowing is to honor my daughter’s, again a giggle rose to the surface, for this understanding was not one held solely in thought form, I could feel it. 

 
I could feel my own deep connection the womb of the earth, to the seed I had planted long ago (to live from a place of self love) and to view life from this place. This understanding deepens as I began to understand my own needs center on completions. I discovered it was through my expression of gratitude, I was able to allow the step of ending to occur. It was my avenue of releasing connections with others, with events. I could see how this was woven throughout my life. There was a new sense of freedom arising within me that again filled me with a giggle.
Through my willingness to move from fear to love, accompanied with Carol’s master- filled intention of holding unconditional love filled space and providing intuitive guidance, I have been able to feel more of myself , to re-gain a sense of Joy in the process of being a Woman, and have begun the next leg of my own personal journey of transformation. I am excited to continue to work with Carol’s guidance as I allow myself to deepen my relationship to “the one who knows” held within.